I updated my Instagram to include my blog site address today. Took a lot for me to do that. My natural instinct is to hide. Hide my pain, hide in my fear, hide my truths. But the very basis of this blog is not doing that anymore right? So I finally did it.
“Real talk who do you think you are? You really think you’re influential? Ha!! Why do you have to out yourself out there? What do you really think you have to gain by sharing your business? You know they’re just gonna judge you right? You know you’re just gonna fail again, right? You know you”re just gonna start and fall off again right? Why even bother?” All of these things are said by the voice in my head daily. These are the things that often keep me from writing at all.
I finally got to a place where I stopped giving a shit. I’ve come to recognize the voice of my fears. I understand where and who fear comes from. I understand what fear is trying to accomplish in my life. I’m deciding I will not by had by fear.
I’ve been a writer since before I knew I was. I’ve been writing and releasing through written word before I ever knew that’s what I was doing. Ive been through too much to not share. I know I’m not the only person in this space. I know my power. I know who I am. Im no longer letting fear tell me who I’m not. I refuse to let the current “restructuring” of my family and my life be in vain.
I am Claudia B. I am written.